Tag: depression

BCHRT Update

In 2015 the Supreme Court of Canada issued its decision in the CARTER matter.
The Supreme Court of Canada said this:
“of no force or effect to the extent that they prohibit physician-assisted death for a competent adult person who (1) clearly consents to the termination of life and (2) has a grievous and irremediable medical condition (including an illness, disease or disability) that causes enduring suffering that is intolerable to the individual in the circumstances of his or her condition.”

The Government of Canada agreed with this decision and prmossied to introduce legislation to allow competent adults suffering from Mental Illness to receive assistance in having their lives terminated.

It’s now 11 years after the decision, and the Government of Canada still insists on denying me the right to end my life with the assitance of a trained professional. The Government of Canada has just added an additional 3 years of suffering to my life. And there’s no indication that in 2027 the Government will finlly allow me to obtain the peace that I desire.

The BCHRT

So, missed work again today.

Just couldn’t muster enough strength or energy to get out of bed.

I did manage though to file a complaint against the Federal Government for their faiure to provide Medical Assistance in Dying to persons suffering from mental illness.

I specifically named Justin Trudeau, Mark Holland, and Arif Virani. Justin Trudeau is the head of the Canadian Government. Mark Holland is the Minister of Health, and Arif Virani is the Minister of Health.

Some may say “Bobbie, isn’t this a bit harsh? They’re only looking out for Canadians”.

No, they’re playing politics.

They’re putting the electability of their party ahead of the needs of persons suffering from mental illness.

Canadian society turns a blind eye to the number of easily prevented deaths on the public streets in the name of car driver convienience. Mandaroty GPS based speed limiters and a 20 km/h blanket speed limit in any municipal area would cut the amount of deaths on the public streets by at least 3/4.

Canadian society turns a blind eye to the ever increasing death toll from illicit drugs because the law ‘n’ order crowd says it must be so.

I no longer want to be burdened by brain crushing depression, anxiety, and never ending memories of the abuse, neglect, and degredation of my childhood and the bible thumpers jump up and down that suffering is good for the human soul and that their imaginary friend would be sad if I died.

On the complaint submission the form asks what you expect to see as a resolution. I basically said that until legislation is introduced to formally enshrine the rights of Canadians to die by M.A.i.D., the Justice Minister and the Health Minister should be required on a case by case basis to review applications for M.A.i.D. and either approve or deny the applications on a case by case basis.

Anyways, it will be intereting to see what happens with this. I’m sure that the government has some sort of legal immunity to having to respond to the BCHRT.

Politics and the Imaginary Friend Brigade.

Religion and religious nutcases will always be one of the major hindrances to the advancement of the human race.

Sure, I could understand the need for religion five to ten thousand years ago when the human brain was able to observe so many “miracles” in the world but couldn’t understand these “miracles”.

Having an imaginary friend to explain away these miracles would have keep our species from going insane.

Sadly, the human race finds itself at a cross roads. A cross roads where modern technology helps charlatans spread the bullshit mythology of the past as if it holds some value in the present.

Religious bullshit is being used to strip away the rights of women in America.

Religious bullshit is being used to sweep in a new era of white supremacy in America.

Religious bullshit is being used to deny the rights of the GLBTQ in America.

Religious bullshit is being used by the religious minority to force the “teachings” of their imaginary friends upon the majority.

And Canada is not immune to this religious nonsense.

The American religious right and the American evangelicals funnel dark money and grey money into Canada in an effort to upend our political systems in an effort to hang on to their bigotry under the guise of religious freedom.

And it’s that interference which led the the Liberal Party of Canada, specifically Ajax MP, Mark Holland, the Minister of Health, backing away from the requirement to provide Medical Assistance in Dying for those suffering from mental health issues.

It’s quite alarming to see t Justin Trudeau, Mark Holland, Hedy Fry, and the rest of the Liberal Party of Canada bend a knee and grovel at the feet of the religiously unhinged in this country.

If you’re religious, and if you believe in the imaginary friend in the sky, and you don’t like the idea of M.A.i.D., don’t get M.A.i.D.. Pretty simple concept.

Does this alter my time of death?

No.

I’m still aiming for late 2024 early 2025.

This just means that now I have to treat this as a D.I.Y. project, or that I have to go to a jurisdiction in the world that allows M.A.i.D. for mental illness.

62 days to go

Well, it’s 62 days until I go visit my physician and ask him to assist me with making my formal application for Medical Assistance in Dying.

I think my doc is getting cold feet. I hope that he doesn’t chicken out. That would really fuck things up for me.

No, I don’t want more meds.

No, I don’t want fucking group hug basket weaving therapy.

No, I don’t want to explore my chakras or sing medieval healing chants.

Forever sleep and forever peace is what I want.

And I think after all that I’ve been through in life that I deserve to go to sleep to escape this constant never ending cycle of depression, anxiety, and never ending memories.

68 days to go.

So, it’s 68 days until I make my application for MAiD.

Sorry to disappoint, but my videos are probably going to get a lot more centred around death, after all it is my goal.

To escape and to be free.

Technically I won’t be able to enjoy my new found freedom, but that’s only becuase I’ll be dead.

What I won’t be is hounded by the past.

A past that I never asked for.

A past that had been obscured to me even though I had lived through it and suffered greatly becuase of it.

It’s weird, the closer I get to March 22nd, the more relaxed I become.

Now, of course the 22nd of March is when I make my application, not when I actually undergo the proceedure.

I’m hoping that I can undergo the procedure within a year of making my application.

That said, I’m going to start pivoting my blog away from the Canadian Armed Forces and anything related to the Canadian Forces Base Namao.

So far as the class action goes, c’est la vie. It’s in the hands of the lawyers and the hands of the Department of Justice, so I’m not going to waste any time with that any more.

Anyways, here’s a new video for your viewing enjoyment……

Adverse Childhood Experiences

I normally don’t do self-help psychobable tests.

One of the problems that I’ve always had is answering these things truthfully as I had always been told as a kid to answer these types of tests with whatever I thought that the person administering the tests wanted to hear.

And besides, as a kid I had it drilled into my head that the abuse that I endured on Canadian Forces Base Namao was because I was an out of control homosexual. So of course I wasn’t going to answer anything correctly.

So, I gave this test a quick go, and I think I aced the ACEs test pretty well.

I scored a perfect 10 out of 10 on this test, and I didn’t even have to study for it.

I’m pretty sure that’s not actually a good thing.

This is me. Don’t be alarmed.
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This one’s from California, but they all generally ask the same questions.

The only one that I really couldn’t answer is #6. I know that Richard had been in the brig at Stadacona before I was born. His service file doesn’t say for what. I don’t honestly know if he had ever been locked up after I was born. Makes me wonder if any of his “training exercises” were actually 1 or 2 week sentences.

Anyways, I’m hungry, so I’m going out to get something to eat.

Interests.

In this video I talk interests.

I’ve had interests in life. But they were always the wrong interests and I had these interests for all of the wrong reasons.

I wish that things in life had been different when I was a kid.

But they weren’t, so I can only live in the shadows of the aftermath and the destruction.

January 7th, 2024

Here’s a video that I made earlier today.

I’ve come to realize that if I am allowed to die via Medical Assistance in Dying, that I’m not going to live long enough to see the media take any interest in the two historical flaws in the National Defence Act that actively prevent anyone in the modern day from receiving any manner of justice for crimes they endured as children while living on Canadian Armed Forces bases in Canada.

But, such is life.