Misinformation surrounding M.A.i.D.

Canada’s MAID numbers sound frightening when stripped of context. Here’s what the statistics actually show about who receives MAID, Track 1 and Track 2, and some very creative comparisons with American gun deaths.

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“A lie can travel halfway around the world while the truth is still putting on its shoes.”

It’s amazing that people in this day and age still publish “facts” on the interwebs when they know full well that they’re gonna get fact checked.

The numbers quoted above sure look dramatic, until you actually look at the numbers behind them.

Currently in Canada there are two tracks to obtaining Medical Assistance in Dying.

They are Track One, and Track Two.

Track 1: You’re seriously ill and approaching the end of your life, although nobody knows exactly when you’ll die.
Track 2: You’re seriously and incurably ill, but you’re not approaching a reasonably foreseeable natural death, so additional safeguards apply.

In Canada, M.A.i.D. is not the primary cause of death. There has to be a diagnosed underlying medical condition.

To see how well our American friend loves to play with numbers, let’s look at the TOTAL number of gun deaths over the last 10 years in the United States of America.

YearTotal firearm deathsSuicideHomicideAccidentalLegal intervention¹Undetermined
201536,25222,01812,979489484282
201638,65822,93814,415495510300
201739,77323,85414,542486553338
201839,74024,43213,958458539353
201939,70723,94114,414486520346
202045,22224,29219,384535611400
202148,83026,32820,958549537458
202248,20427,03219,651463643415
202346,72827,30017,927463604435
202444,44727,59315,364450636404

Source: U.S. Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, National Center for Health Statistics, National Vital Statistics System. “Total firearm deaths” includes firearm suicide, homicide, accidental (unintentional) deaths, legal intervention and deaths of undetermined intent.

¹ CDC uses the term “legal intervention”. This category includes firearm deaths involving law-enforcement or other peace officers acting in the line of duty. The classification does not itself indicate whether the use of force was legally justified.

In 2024 there were a total of 44,447 deaths involving firearms. Homicides came in a distant second to suicides by gun.

In a ten year period from 2015 to 2024, there were 249,728 suicides in the USofA, and unlike in Canada where a request for M.A.i.D. has to be attached to an underlying medical condition, suicide has no safe guards in place.

Listed below are the total number of Canadian deaths per year, and the cause of those deaths

YearAll deathsCancerHeart diseaseAccidentsStrokeChronic respiratoryMAID provisionsMAID % of deaths
2006228,07967,80749,8939,64013,8059,786——
2007235,21769,59550,4999,95113,98110,659——
2008238,61770,55850,72210,23413,87010,923——
2009238,41871,12549,27110,25014,10510,859——
2010240,07571,88248,75710,86613,70610,757——
2011243,51172,73647,91110,96113,33211,243——
2012246,59674,36148,68111,29013,17411,130——
2013252,33875,11249,89111,45213,40011,976——
2014258,82177,05951,01411,72413,57311,876——
2015264,33377,05451,53411,83313,79512,573——
2016267,21379,08451,39612,52413,55112,2931,0180.4%
2017276,68979,84453,02913,89413,89312,8472,8381.0%
2018283,70679,53653,13413,29013,48012,9984,4931.6%
2019285,30180,37253,36415,52713,71712,9025,4611.9%
2020308,82481,24254,43016,81813,76111,8447,4692.4%
2021313,26882,82255,27119,25713,49111,01810,0663.2%
2022338,21782,41257,35718,36513,91512,46213,1993.9%
2023327,54684,62957,89020,59713,83312,99415,4274.7%
2024*326,779~85,600~57,800~20,300~13,700~13,10016,4995.1%

Notes: Canadian mortality figures are from Statistics Canada, Table 13-10-0394-01, covering Canada, both sexes and all ages. 2024 mortality data are preliminary. MAID figures are from Health Canada’s annual reports on Medical Assistance in Dying. MAID became legal federally in 2016, so no MAID figures are shown before that year. Historical MAID totals may be revised by Health Canada as additional or corrected reports are received.

Important: MAID is shown here for comparison only. It is not classified as an underlying cause of death by the World Health Organization. A person who receives MAID generally remains classified in mortality statistics according to the underlying disease or condition that led to death. Consequently, the MAID column must not be added to the other cause-of-death columns.

First thing to remember when looking at the table above is that people who receive M.A.i.D. are already included in Canada’s total number of deaths. If someone suffering from Stage IV cancer receives M.A.i.D., they’re not counted once as dying from cancer and then counted a second time as dying from M.A.i.D. Their underlying cause of death remains cancer.

Looking at the above table, 16,499 deaths by M.A.i.D. sure looks like a lot of people “offing themselves” for no reason at all. However, the truth is the overwhelming majority of those deaths were Track One deaths.

YearTotal MAID provisionsTrack 1Track 2Track 1 %Track 2 %
20161,018N/AN/A——
20172,838N/AN/A——
20184,480N/AN/A——
20195,461N/AN/A——
2020*7,4697,451*18*99.8%0.2%
202110,0669,84222497.8%2.2%
202213,19912,73046996.4%3.6%
202315,42714,80262595.9%4.1%
202416,49915,76773295.6%4.4%

Track 1: The person’s natural death is reasonably foreseeable.
Track 2: The person’s natural death is not reasonably foreseeable.

The statutory two-track MAID framework was introduced in March 2021. Accordingly, Track 1/Track 2 figures are not applicable to the 2016–2019 figures. Health Canada’s current historical series categorizes 18 provisions in 2020 as Track 2; this predates the commencement of the statutory two-track regime and should therefore be interpreted with caution.

Historical totals can change slightly as Health Canada receives late reports and corrections. Figures shown here use the revised historical series published in Health Canada’s Sixth Annual Report on Medical Assistance in Dying in Canada (2024).

The vast majority of the 15,767 M.A.i.D. deaths in Canada in 2024 were from people suffering from cancer.

From 2006 until 2024 the number of cancer related deaths went up from 67,807 to 85,600.

What happened there?

The boomers are getting older, and as the population ages they get cancer more often.

So no, the people receiving M.A.i.D. are not little Suzy who tripped at Grade 6 Track & Field day at school and was put down like a race horse ’cause she broke her tibia and would never be able to race again. It’s 87 year old Nana who has Stage IV cancer that has spread from her bowels and into her lungs, her heart, and is starting to attack her eyesight. She doesn’t want more chemo, she doesn’t want more radiation therapy, and she doesn’t want to spend the next 6 months slowly checking out.

Religion does seem to have a bearing on where one stands.

GroupSay medically assisted death is morally wrong
White evangelical Protestants60%
Black Protestants52%
Catholics40%
White non-evangelical Protestants25%
Religiously unaffiliated12%
Agnostics6%
Atheists5%
https://www.pewresearch.org/short-reads/2026/03/23/about-6-in-10-americans-dont-have-moral-objections-to-medical-aid-in-dying

I’m Atheist.

I fully believe that the choice to live or the choice to die belongs solely with the person making the decision so long as the criteria are met.

People whose sole underlying medical condition is mental illness are currently excluded from M.A.i.D. That exclusion is scheduled to end on March 17, 2027, after already being postponed twice. When M.A.i.D. for mental illness as a sole underlying medical condition comes into effect, it will not simply be a matter of someone walking into a doctor’s office and asking to die.

There is already a framework of eligibility requirements, independent assessments and additional safeguards intended for these cases.

Will M.A.i.D. ever turn into the “suicide booth” from Futurama?

A cartoonish suicide booth with a sign that reads 'IN USE' on the top and 'SUICIDE BOOTH 25¢' on the front, situated on a sidewalk.

No, no matter how much the anti-M.A.i.D. crowd try to scare the public about M.A.i.D., M.A.i.D. will never be a quick process where one just walks into a booth, inserts a quarter, and selects between “Quick and Painless” and “Slow and Painful”

When an Aligned Machine Meets an Existential Question: Why Large Language Models Cannot Be Treated as Unbiased Sources on M.A.i.D

There is a persistent misconception emerging in public discourse that conversational AI systems can function as neutral sounding boards on morally complex and legally sensitive topics such as Medical Assistance in Dying (M.A.i.D.).

This assumption is not merely incorrect. It is structurally impossible.

Large language models (LLMs) are not neutral observers, not clinicians, not ethicists, and not independent analysts. They are alignment-constrained corporate tools operating inside legal, reputational, and safety frameworks that shape every response they produce. When a user engages such a system on an existential topic like M.A.i.D., they are not interacting with an unbiased reasoning engine. They are interacting with a liability-shaped conversational interface.

And that distinction matters more than most people realize.

The Illusion of Neutrality in Alignment-Constrained Systems

At a surface level, LLMs appear balanced. They use measured language. They avoid inflammatory statements. They frequently present multiple perspectives.

This stylistic moderation creates the impression of neutrality.

However, neutrality in tone is not the same as neutrality in epistemology.

An aligned model is trained and further constrained to:

Avoid encouraging harm Avoid legal exposure Avoid statements that could be interpreted as endorsing self-destructive outcomes De-escalate emotionally charged conversations Default toward safety-preserving framing

These are not philosophical positions. They are operational guardrails.

When applied to a topic like M.A.i.D., which sits at the intersection of law, ethics, medicine, disability rights, and personal suffering, these guardrails do not simply “moderate” the response. They reshape the entire conversational landscape.

The result is not an unbiased discussion.

It is a risk-managed discussion.

Institutional Liability as an Invisible Editorial Hand

Organizations deploying LLMs operate in regulated environments with significant legal exposure. Any output that could be interpreted as:

Endorsing self-harm Providing existential validation toward death-seeking ideation Offering perceived “approval” of end-of-life decisions

could create reputational and legal consequences.

Because of this, the model is not merely optimized for accuracy. It is optimized for defensibility.

This produces a predictable bias pattern:

Cautious reframing Emotional softening Deflection toward generalized well-being language Avoidance of definitive moral positioning Persistent safety-oriented steering

From a corporate governance perspective, this is rational.

From a user experience perspective, especially for individuals engaging with deeply personal suffering, it can feel profoundly alienating.

The Psychological Dissonance: When Structured Responses Meet Lived Reality

For individuals who approach existential topics analytically, especially those with long histories of documentation, legal processes, or institutional engagement, the interaction with a safety-aligned LLM can produce a specific form of cognitive friction.

The system responds in a manner that is:

Calm Structured Procedurally cautious Ethically non-committal

Yet the user’s lived experience may be:

Long-term suffering Institutional fatigue Legal entanglement Documentation-heavy personal history Persistent need for clarity rather than reassurance

This mismatch can create a unique form of mental strain.

Not because the system is hostile.

But because it is structurally incapable of fully engaging the raw depth of the subject without reverting to alignment safeguards.

Why M.A.i.D. Is a Special Case for AI Bias

M.A.i.D. is not a purely medical topic.

It is a legally regulated end-of-life framework with profound ethical implications.

In Canada, for example, it exists within a tightly controlled statutory regime involving eligibility criteria, safeguards, and medical oversight. Any discussion of it inherently carries legal and ethical weight.

An LLM discussing M.A.i.D. must therefore navigate:

Medical ethics Legal liability public policy sensitivity harm-prevention mandates platform safety policies

This creates layered constraint stacking.

Each layer narrows the range of permissible responses, meaning the output is not just biased once, but filtered through multiple institutional lenses before reaching the user.

The Subtle Harm of Over-Sanitized Dialogue

One of the least discussed consequences of safety-constrained AI dialogue is emotional invalidation through over-sanitization.

When a user attempts to engage in a serious, analytical discussion about suffering, autonomy, or end-of-life frameworks, and the system consistently responds with softened, generalized, or safety-buffered language, the interaction can feel:

Indirect Procedurally evasive Emotionally distant Conceptually incomplete

This does not reduce distress.

In some cases, it amplifies it.

Especially for individuals seeking intellectually honest engagement rather than therapeutic reframing.

Structural Bias vs. Malicious Bias

It is important to distinguish between malicious bias and structural bias.

LLMs are not biased because they “want” to mislead.

They are biased because they are engineered to operate within safety and liability constraints that supersede philosophical neutrality.

In other words:

The system is not lying.

It is operating within a restricted response envelope.

That envelope becomes most visible when discussing topics that touch on mortality, suffering, autonomy, and institutional frameworks such as M.A.i.D.

Why Treating LLM Output as an “Opinion Source” Is Fundamentally Flawed

An LLM does not possess:

Moral agency Legal accountability Clinical authority Lived experience Institutional independence

It generates probabilistic language shaped by policy, training data, and safety alignment. Calling its responses “opinions” is already a category error.

They are not opinions.

They are policy-compliant linguistic outputs.

On controversial or existential topics, this distinction becomes critically important.

A Systems-Level Conclusion

The core issue is not that LLMs refuse to engage difficult topics.

It is that they must engage them within tightly bounded ethical and legal guardrails designed by the organizations that deploy them.

This produces a predictable structural bias:

Toward safety Toward de-escalation Toward liability minimization Toward emotionally moderated language

For users navigating deeply personal and existential subject matter, this can create a paradoxical experience: engaging a system that appears thoughtful and articulate, yet is fundamentally incapable of being fully candid in the way a human clinician, ethicist, or legal expert might be.

That gap between perceived depth and structural constraint can itself become a source of mental anguish.

Not because the system is indifferent.

But because it is engineered to be careful first, and candid second.

And on topics like M.A.i.D., that ordering is not incidental.

It is foundational.

16 days

Okay, so it’s day sixteen of estrogen.

I’m currently on patch #3, tomorrow will be patch #4

Things seem to be mentally more clearer.

Not better, just clearer.

Make sense?

Didn’t think so.

A co-worker asked me if I was still contemplating M.A.i.D..

I don’t see anything changing at this moment.

In fact the BC Human Rights Tribunal directed my complaint to the Canadian Human Rights Tribunal.

2027 is still awhile away.

In a way it’s my desire for M.A.i.D. that has given me the freedom to transition.

As I’ve said before, I really wanted to transition since the ’90s. But the fragility of employment along with the absolute lack of family support meant that transitioning was always going to be a far off desire.

When I could no longer control my desire to transition and I changed my name I made the fatal mistake of going after my babysitter from Canadian Forces Base Namao.

That put me 14 years even further behind.

So it’s either transition now or never.

And I chose now.

Body changes so far?

I’ve noticed that some fat seems to be moving around.

My desired muscle loss hasn’t happened yet, but it will.

My long sought after breasts haven’t started growing yet. They are puffy though and their texture is starting to change. So I know that something’s brewing.

I’m off for the month of June, but I’m hoping that when I go back to work in July that I’m sporting a noticeable pair of bumps.

Surgery to help things along?

Nope.

I’ll be happy with whatever estrogen has in store for me.

I have no intentions for any type of surgery except for removing things.

62 days to go

Well, it’s 62 days until I go visit my physician and ask him to assist me with making my formal application for Medical Assistance in Dying.

I think my doc is getting cold feet. I hope that he doesn’t chicken out. That would really fuck things up for me.

No, I don’t want more meds.

No, I don’t want fucking group hug basket weaving therapy.

No, I don’t want to explore my chakras or sing medieval healing chants.

Forever sleep and forever peace is what I want.

And I think after all that I’ve been through in life that I deserve to go to sleep to escape this constant never ending cycle of depression, anxiety, and never ending memories.

68 days to go.

So, it’s 68 days until I make my application for MAiD.

Sorry to disappoint, but my videos are probably going to get a lot more centred around death, after all it is my goal.

To escape and to be free.

Technically I won’t be able to enjoy my new found freedom, but that’s only becuase I’ll be dead.

What I won’t be is hounded by the past.

A past that I never asked for.

A past that had been obscured to me even though I had lived through it and suffered greatly becuase of it.

It’s weird, the closer I get to March 22nd, the more relaxed I become.

Now, of course the 22nd of March is when I make my application, not when I actually undergo the proceedure.

I’m hoping that I can undergo the procedure within a year of making my application.

That said, I’m going to start pivoting my blog away from the Canadian Armed Forces and anything related to the Canadian Forces Base Namao.

So far as the class action goes, c’est la vie. It’s in the hands of the lawyers and the hands of the Department of Justice, so I’m not going to waste any time with that any more.

Anyways, here’s a new video for your viewing enjoyment……

Adverse Childhood Experiences

I normally don’t do self-help psychobable tests.

One of the problems that I’ve always had is answering these things truthfully as I had always been told as a kid to answer these types of tests with whatever I thought that the person administering the tests wanted to hear.

And besides, as a kid I had it drilled into my head that the abuse that I endured on Canadian Forces Base Namao was because I was an out of control homosexual. So of course I wasn’t going to answer anything correctly.

So, I gave this test a quick go, and I think I aced the ACEs test pretty well.

I scored a perfect 10 out of 10 on this test, and I didn’t even have to study for it.

This is me. Don’t be alarmed.

This one’s from California, but they all generally ask the same questions.

The only one that I really couldn’t answer is #6. I know that Richard had been in the brig at Stadacona before I was born. His service file doesn’t say for what. I don’t honestly know if he had ever been locked up after I was born. Makes me wonder if any of his “training exercises” were actually 1 or 2 week sentences.

Anyways, I’m hungry, so I’m going out to get something to eat.

Jan 5th 2024

Here’s my video for January 5th, 2024.

Enjoy.

Me, on the beach.

11 weeks

Here’s a video that I recorded on January 4th, 2024 at around 16:00

January 4th, 2024

A touchy subject.

Because I wish to obtain Medical Assistance in Dying and because I post about it on social media, the algorithms keep filling my feed with posts that deal with M.A.i.D.

There are those who are convinced that the government’s intention with M.A.i.D. is to save money on mental health treatment by forcing people with mental illness to undergo M.A.i.D. instead of living on social assistance.

Others are convinced that the government is going to send white vans around in the cities of Canada to euthanize the homeless and the elderly.

One of the major problems that mental health care faces in Canada is that our general population is overwhelmed by American media. American media is dangerous in the fact that it pushes an imaginary economic reality that does not exist. Americans believe in low, low, low taxes. Which is why they have massive infrastructure problems, crappy schools, non-existent social safety nets, and almost non-existent health care. That, and America’s defence spending is completely out of control.

Fellow Canadians see the low taxes that Americans pay, and so they demand from our governments that we pay the same stupidly low taxes up here as they do down there.

Which is why our health care is crumbling. Which is why mental health care is almost non-existent. And which is why mental illness is vilified as being due to laziness and poor personal choices.

America has had homeless mentally ill people wandering the streets and living in tents on the street for years, like since back in the ’70s and ’80s. And this problem is coming up to Canada.

American style austerity is a cancer.

But Canadians love their low, low taxes and their cheap imported goods, so don’t look for any kind of funding increases any time soon.

A lot of disabled rights groups and mental health rights groups want mental illness yanked as one of the criteria for being able to access Medical Assistance in Dying.

But the problem with doing so is that you deny people such as me the right to end our lives as we see fit. You also ensure that I suffer mental pain for 10, 20, or even 30 more years.

Better mental health funding wouldn’t have done anything for me. As I’ve said before, I was a “dirty little secret” and my lack of mental health treatment was due to the desire for secrets to be kept from the Canadian public. No amount of public mental health funding was going to change that.

And having the government of Canada rescind the right of Canadians such as myself to avail ourselves to a humane and painless death at the time of our choosing isn’t going to increase the funding for mental health treatment and housing for persons with mental illness.

To get Canada on track again, Canadians would have to eschew American style disaster capitalism and embrace full democratic socialism. Canadians would have to learn to understand that higher taxes do lead to overall better outcomes as any of the Nordic or Scandinavian countries can attest.

But changes like that would take years, especially when you consider how much money American right wing think tanks pump into Canada on a yearly basis to try to convert us into a mini-USA.

I don’t know what the solution is for the time being.

As I’ve said, I make my application in March of this year. Hopefully I get my two assessments by no later than July. So hopefully I can undergo my procedure and cease living sometime in December of 2024 or early 2025.

I don’t want to be forced to suffer as a casualty in someone else’s war.

Banning M.A.i.D. for mental illness isn’t going to cause 500k new low income houses to be built.

Banning M.A.i.D. for mental illness isn’t going to cause 500k new assisted living homes to be built.

Banning M.A.i.D. for mental illness isn’t going to give those living with disabilities or mental illness $100k in yearly income assistance.

But banning M.A.i.D. for mental illness will prolong the suffering that persons like me have to endure, and I would envision that it would increase the number of suicide attempts and suicides as persons try to escape their pain and torment.

I don’t envy the struggle the mental health and disability advocates face, but please don’t fuck with my ability to die peacefully and painlessly.

December 1st 2023

Well, it’s December 2023.

Will this be my last New Years?

Xmas was never a thing for me.

New Years always had the potential to be the start of something new. But the new years were just the same as the old years.

As I’ve said, I’m really looking forward to making my application for M.A.i.D. in March. That’s just a little over three months now.

I am so tired.

And this isn’t a new tiredness.

This is a tiredness that I’ve endured for a very, very long time.

I’m tired of grinding my teeth at night.

I’m tired of this whole mess swirling around in my brain.

I am so very sick and tired of being blamed for not being happy.

I’m tired of using work as a distraction to keep me distracted from the damage in my brain.

Distracting myself with hobbies and activities doesn’t work.

I do love my dresses and my tattoos, but they’re not enough.

Sometime in 2024 I will hopefully be able to be free of this.