Well, my out of control self consciousness makes it hard for me to do the videos that I wanted to.
I know, this sounds silly coming from the guy who has pretty well switched his wardrobe over to dresses a few years ago. But yeah, I don’t like talking about my plans for M.A.i.D. in public nor do I like to discuss the events of Canadian Forces Base Namao in public. Again, that probably sounds silly coming from the guy who writes these blogs and who has a Vimeo channel, but my readership and viewership is so minimal on both of those platforms that I’m basically just shouting into the eternal void.
But at least it’s therapeutic.
Next Tuesday I get to ask a M.A.i.D. provider some questions related to the assessment process.
In five months time I will be at my physician’s office making my official request for Medical Assistance in Dying.
Does that mean that I get to be put to sleep in five months? Nope. Not at all.
First, I have to hope that the “disabled rights groups” and the “evangelical nutcase” groups don’t fuck with this legislation. If “disabled rights groups” want more funding, go for more funding. Just don’t fuck with my ability to obtain peaceful sleep. You think that by making me suffer longer than I need to that somehow you’ll get more funding? Nope. You want more funding, go fight for more funding. Do not fuck around with people requesting a peaceful exit. The fact that you don’t hear a lot from these “disabled rights groups” except for around the topic of M.A.i.D. makes me wonder who is actually backing these groups. Especially with their outlandish claims that the government is just going to start executing disabled people instead of taking care of them.
As I’ve said elsewhere, I’ll probably be around for the most part of 2024.
I don’t know how long it will take for the assessments.
If I apply in March and get my assessments by June, then I’ll have to wait for a 90 day cooling off period to expire. That takes me into October.
I’ll have 1 year to utilize my prescription for M.A.i.D.
Right now, all I can do is kinda window shop for the events leading up to my death.
I have in mind the funeral homes that I would like to use for my procedure and my cremation. I could pay for the reservation now, but I don’t even know if I’ll be allowed to be put to sleep. And, once I receive my prescription for M.A.i.D., my life insurance will actually pay for the funeral home reservation and the cremation of my corpse.
Again, for those wondering what I mean by a reservation at a funeral home, there are a growing number of funeral homes that will allow the M.A.i.D. procedure to occur on their premises. Then after I have been declared to be deceased they will hold my corpse as required for the 48 hour holding period. Then after the 48 hour hold period it’s into the cremator my corpse goes. What happens with my ashes is anyone guess, at that point in time I’ve long since ceased to care.
After I receive my prescription for M.A.i.D. is when I can really start planning.
I’ve been getting my skin loaded with tattoos.
I’m not artistic, and I think the reason that I waited until my 20’s to start getting tattoos is I was always under the impression that tattoos had to be “artistic” representations of naked women and Viking warriors, American eagles, etc. It took a while for me to realize that tattoos could be shapes and lines and blocks.
After I get my prescription for M.A.i.D. is when I can discretely approach my tattoos artists to see if they want to save any of their tattoo work. Yes, it is legal to skin a human corpse. And there are companies that will preserve tattooed human skin.
But, this isn’t the type of thing that you just start shopping around for, especially not before you have your M.A.i.D. prescription in hand.
And then there’s work.
I definitely do not want to keep working right up to the day of my death. I’d like to take a month or two off prior to my death. Just to wind down, clean things up, tie up as many loose strings as possible. I think that I deserve a little respite.
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