So, it’s 68 days until I make my application for MAiD.
Sorry to disappoint, but my videos are probably going to get a lot more centred around death, after all it is my goal.
To escape and to be free.
Technically I won’t be able to enjoy my new found freedom, but that’s only becuase I’ll be dead.
What I won’t be is hounded by the past.
A past that I never asked for.
A past that had been obscured to me even though I had lived through it and suffered greatly becuase of it.
It’s weird, the closer I get to March 22nd, the more relaxed I become.
Now, of course the 22nd of March is when I make my application, not when I actually undergo the proceedure.
I’m hoping that I can undergo the procedure within a year of making my application.
That said, I’m going to start pivoting my blog away from the Canadian Armed Forces and anything related to the Canadian Forces Base Namao.
So far as the class action goes, c’est la vie. It’s in the hands of the lawyers and the hands of the Department of Justice, so I’m not going to waste any time with that any more.
Anyways, here’s a new video for your viewing enjoyment……
Beeshive 
Hi I have read your story with lot of interest. As I explained you before I am in the same boat as you. In my case my doctor does not feel comfortable signing the MAID application. Me too I do not wish to live anymore there is nothing in this earth for me. I do not want to reach 60 years old and I am planning my Death Bash the same day I am 60 as I will not have joy. I can understand your pain after going through your struggles.
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I really enjoy your blogs. Me too I wish to leave this earth, This year I will turn 60 and I am preparing on how to die that day. It could be before, which I hope. The only thing I can do is being extremely violent against myself by hitting my head, bitting myself, scratching all the self hate I can do. I wish you succeed nobody deserves to live a life of pain and rejection. Hopefully the politicians do not delay again. Good Luck
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