Today I was interviewed by the lawyer for the defence.
Today was interesting.
Thankfully I’m on escitalopram. I’d hate to think how today would have turned out if I was my good ol’ self.
Being depressed and suffering from severe anxiety means that today would have been an absolute nightmare if I wasn’t medicated.
Sorry to say, but I can’t discuss anything that was discussed today. Not even supposed to discuss the evidence presented today with my lawyer who was also present during the examination.
Yesterday was interesting.
Yesterday was the first “in office” visit with my nurse practitioner since the start of the pandemic back in March of 2020.
My N.P. is the one who set me up with escitalopram last year when my brain started to seriously crack.
So yesterday was the first time that I had seriously talked to him about medical assistance in dying. We had talked on the phone various times over the last year as he was doing monthly check-ins to see how I was doing and we would discuss M.A.i.D..
However I was in person this time and we had a much better conversation. I explained to him why counselling couldn’t or wouldn’t work for me. No civilian counsellor would understand the mess I went through as kid. And no civilian counsellor or even a military counsellor would be able to sweep the crap out of my brain.
The damage is there, the damage is permanent, and the damage isn’t simply going away.
And no, I don’t want to learn how to live with it. I’ve lived with it long enough.
But I am getting way ahead of myself. I still don’t know what the specific criteria will be. And those criteria won’t be released until March 2023.
So, we’ll have to wait and see.
I’ve also had the opportunity to start shooting pictures in RAW mode with my camera.
I know, large jump from death to cameras, but hey, what the heck.
RAW images are interesting in the sense that they can be truly manipulated. These images in RAW are the actual data unprocessed from the sensor.
These images have not been processed or compressed.
This RAW image is converted to PNG just for the sake of being able to be uploaded to my blog. The PNG format does have some compression.
If you have a Mac or an image program capable of viewing RAW files, here is the original RAW image.
Anyways, enough for now.