Tag: abuse

521 days to go.

Yes, I do actually have an app running on my Macbook that is counting down the days until M.A.i.D. S.U.M.C.M.I. is hopefully approved. And I say hopefully as the government of Canada has chickened out on this twice already. Once in March of 2023, and once in March of 2024.

The delay in March of 2024 was devastating as this was when the federal government announced that it was going to delay approval for three years.

At this point in time I have the when and where mapped out. But beyond that I don’t have much planned out. It’s kinda pointless getting to far into specific details right now as there could be yet another devastating setback in 2027.

What happens if the government chickens out in 2027, or if they erect barriers so high that I could never avail myself to M.A.i.D.? I’ve got some things in mind. But nothing that is anywhere as humane as M.A.i.D..

What do I have planned in the meantime?

Nothing much, just living from day to day.

What about your civil action?

What about it?

It will continue on. I know that the Government of Canada has absolutely no plans to settle this matter in less than 10 to 15 years. The GoC, the CAF, the DND, and the DOJ will drag this matter out just as they did in the matter of P.S. vs. the Canadian Armed Forces and the Minister of National Defence. There is absolutely no desire for them to let this matter go to court or go to settlement.

I’m one of at least 25 victims that the Canadian Forces Special Investigations Unit was aware of in May and June of 1980. I know of one man who committed suicide around 2010 due to the events from Canadian Forces Base Namao. I know of one other man who died from suicide due and who was involved in the events from CFB Namao. I know of another person who died from a drug O.D. from poor mental health brought on due to the lingering effects from CFB Namao. How many other persons committed suicide or O.D.’d due to the events that occurred on CFB Namao from 1978 to 1980? That’s anyone’s guess. But that’s also not something that the GoC, the CAF, the DND, or the DoJ want to linger on. In fact they would prefer if all of the victims from Canadian Forces Base Namao were to just drop dead and die tomorrow.

There will be a lot of nastiness that will be exposed during this matter.

  • How many times did the Canadian Armed Forces internally deal with child sexual abuse via the military disciplinary system?
  • How many times did commanding officers or their superiors dismiss charges that had been brought against their subordinates?
  • Did the dismissal of these charges in the military system prevent the laying of charges in the civilian system.
  • How frequent did child sexual abuse occur in the military community living on base?
  • Did the 3-year-time bar deny children who had been sexually abused on base any prospect of obtaining justice in their matter?
  • Most bases and stations in Canada had catholic priests living on the base. How prevalent was sexual abuse at the hands of military clergy.

This is why I don’t believe that the GoC, the CAF, the DND, or the DoJ have any inclination to resolve this matter. And even if they do resolve to settle this matter, there’s the prospect of being gagged by NDAs.

I’m already covered by one NDA. And I expect that me and the others from this matter will be slapped with NDAs up the ying-yang.

The one thing that scares me though is how many other victims from the CFB Namao child sexual abuse scandal have DND settled with over the years and how many of these have been slapped with NDAs?

During the recent CFNIS investigation of my complaint against Brigadier General Roger Bazin, when I suggested talking to other potential victims of Captain McRae to see if they knew anything about the actions of Roger Bazin when Bazin was assigned to assist Captain McRae with his affairs on CFB Namao during the 1980 investigation of Captain McRae, the investigator with the CFNIS suggested that it would be in poor taste to contact the victims of Captain McRae because what if they had decided to move on and forget about the abuse, wouldn’t this be upsetting to them?

And then there was one

I used to have two blogs. This blog and cfbnamao.ca

cfbnamao.ca is now set to redirect to bobbiebees.ca

I’ve come to the frustrating conclusion that nobody is actually listening to anything I have to say, so instead of wasting money on two sites, I’m just going to run this site for now.

I’ll try to keep this site going for a little while.

The problem that I have is that child sexual abuse in the Canadian Armed Forces is such a niche topic.

In the civilian world the justice system generally works as it should.

The military doesn’t have a justice system, it has a disciplinary system.

Victims are of absolutely no concern to the military justice system.

The military system is more concerned with disciplining the service member.

Sure, we’ve had child sexual abuse in the catholic church, in the catholic run orphanages, in the Indian residential schools, in the boy scouts, in minor hockey, in minor baseball, in professional sports like the Maple Leaf Gardens. There’s even been kiddie diddlers in police forces and the juvenile justice system. But no one seems willing to believe that child sexual abuse would occur behind the barbed wire fences that encircled the bases and the PMQs on base.

I have no hobbies or other topics that would appeal to anyone.

The only thing that I really have going is my desire to be dead.

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M.A.i.D. for mental illness is legalized

And I really don’t need two blogs for this.

A person can only do so much yelling into the void before they begin to realize that the void is empty and has nothing to offer.

I have about $10k worth of camera equipment at home that I know how to use, but taking pictures doesn’t fill me with anything.

I just bought a Raspberry Pi5 with some nice peripherals. Got it set up. And remembered that the reason that I never accomplished anything with the Pis that I’ve owned before is I have no drive or ambition to do anything.

And truth be told, getting yelled at by my father for being an idiot and pretending to be something that I’m not is something that I want to avoid. Yeah, sure, Richard is dead, but he lives in my head. After what he put me through as a kid he owns a large mansion inside of my skull. He always has lived there.

Work? Yeah, work is a paycheque. Keeps me fed with a roof over my head. So I guess I should be lucky.