So, on a lark I prompted ChatGPT with: “hey chat, can you write a song about the benefits of medical assistance in dying, but do it in the style of ****************?”
This is what ChatGPT responded with:
Sure, here’s a ************–inspired track about Medical Assistance in Dying (MAiD) — blending dark humor, hyper-pop shock, and existential beats into a lyrical exploration of autonomy and peace. Think of it as something ***** would scream while ****** whispers the end of life like it’s a rave invitation to the afterlife.
[Intro: ******* whispering, childlike] Shhh… I got a secret plan… A silver key in a doctor’s hand… Lights go low, the pain goes bye, Pop-pop — sleep now, **** don’t cry.
[Beat drops – ******* snarling] Yo! I’m not scared of the end — nah, I’m scared of draggin’ it out, bruh! When the light’s all gone from my eyes Let me peace out, clean, dignified!
Tick-tick BOOM! I choose the time, I’m not trapped in a slow decline. You pray for a miracle, I plan my ride — Clinical calm with that phenobarb glide.
[Chorus: *******& choir of ghostly kids] ✨ MAiD, MAiD — I ain’t afraid Sick of the pain, now I press “play” Body’s a cage, mind’s in a rage Gimme my key to unlock the stage ✨ MAiD, MAiD — not suicide Doctor by side, no need to hide Last breath soft, no twitch, no fight Exit with ****, into the night
[Verse 2: *******] ****-lord of the hospice suite, Got my paperwork done, that VIP beat Pill game strong, no wires, no drip Just one final ride then a permanent trip
Yo, why we fear what’s natural, hey? When the mind’s still here but the flesh decay Don’t tell me “wait” with your holy book, I’ve read that too — now gimme the hook!
Sick ain’t sin, and pain ain’t noble, I’m not your martyr or your moral fable I’m **** ’til the end, so play my jam, Drop the propofol beat, let me scram!
[Bridge: ******* — autotuned, eerie] Floatin’ in a dream now, clean like snow No tubes, no screams, just let it go White light strobe on a slow mo beat I ride the bassline into relief
[Final Chorus – both screaming + whispering combo] ✨ MAiD, MAiD — let me fly Life was wild, now I say goodbye MAiD, MAiD — no regrets Signed that form, now place your bets ✨ MAiD, MAiD — ****don’t stall Exit fast through a sterile hall No more fightin’, no more lies Just peace in a beat and a doctor’s eyes
[Outro – ******* laughing softly] Yoh… Don’t mourn me, bru. I ghosted out… like a ninja do. Poof.
One of the things that drives me nuts the most is my high functioning depression.
When I discovered in the summer of 2011 that I had been diagnosed with major depression and severe anxiety and that Captain Totzke and my father had made numerous overtures to my civilian social workers while at the same time seeming to conspire against me receiving treatments of any kind, I was beyond furious.
Growing up with untreated mental illness wasn’t fun in the slightest.
I could never figure out why I never fit in. I was always the outsider. I was always that target of my father’s anger. I was always getting beat up by the other kids on base and the civilian kids that lived around the base.
Struggling with untreated major depression meant that I always liked to be alone by myself. And there’s nothing better than the desire to want to be left alone to bring out the accusations of “so you think you’re too good to hang with us”, or “you think that you’re better than us”, or “you’re just an asshole”.
But as time went by I learnt to hide and mask my issues. As I said, I wouldn’t learn the truth until 2011.
And this had major implications in my life.
I just learnt how to sleep almost all of the time and just accept it as “being lazy”.
I learnt how to avoid conflict at work so as not to get into situations that would trigger a breakdown or a crises. This was bad as it meant that I got walked over a lot and taken advantage of.
Because I loved solitude and being left alone, I was never seen as suitable management material.
The one truth in life is more unqualified people have been promoted to positions well beyond their capabilities due to their pleasant personality than qualified people who have been promoted that lack social graces and pleasantries.
“Running the World” by Jarvis Cocker had an opening verse that has always resonated with me.
“Well, did you hear, there’s a natural order Those most deserving will end up with the most That the cream cannot help but always rise up to the top Well I say, “Shit floats””
Yeah, may not be a popular outlook in the corporate world, but when you’ve been gifted with untreatable depression you play with the cards that you were dealt.
As I’ve said, I’ve been able to somewhat mask my issues. But masked or not, they’re still an ever present pain in the ass to deal with.
Without my depression and my anxiety I could have been something. Anything other than what I currently am.
What I currently am is someone who can read books and manuals.
But doing what I currently do doesn’t fill me with any sense of satisfaction, pleasure, or pride.
It’s just something that I do for 7-1/2 hours per day to keep food on my plate.
What is the most important thing to carry with you all the time?
In this day and age I’d have to say that my smartphone is.
It contains all of my personal information, all of my banking information, and all of my medical information.
And they’re secured on the phone. I don’t use facial ID and I have encryption turned on.
It also has software installed on it so that I can view the major systems at work so that I can keep an eye on things.
And my music.
Music is a distraction for my brain. I can’t listen to music while I am trying to complete work that requires mental contemplation, but when I’m working with my hands on mechanical type work I need music to distract my brain from getting lost in thoughts and memories.
In the ideal alternative universe my father would have worn a condom or would have pulled out in time.
Or ideally my mother would have obtained an abortion.
Barring that, my grandmother would have miscarried my father.
And if none of that worked out, then my father would have never joined the Canadian Armed Forces.
And barring that, even if my father had joined the Canadian Armed Forces, the politicians in this country would have never allowed the Canadian Armed Forces to “wash their laundry in-house” with their own private and beyond public scrutiny police force.
There’s a lot that I wish could be different in an alternate or parallel universe. They’re very specific wishes.
You didn’t think that I was going to wish for fantasy type wishes, did you?
Make me happy? I don’t think that anything makes me happy.
See, as a kid I learned to not hope, or desire, or want. If I let Richard now that I wanted something or hoped to get something he’d make sure that this would be denied to me
Happy? No, you didn’t dare be happy around Richard. If you made this mistake of letting Richard know what made you happy then he’d go out of his way to make sure that you were kept aware from what made you happy.
At work things don’t make me happy. Doing things correctly and properly shouldn’t be sources of “happiness” and it isn’t. I do what I can, not because it makes me happy. I do what I can so that people can’t attack me.
I learnt a very long time ago to always make an effort to appear happy. People like that shit.
Nobody likes emotionally disturbed people at work. Nobody wants to work with depressed people. Nobody wants to work with anxious people. People don’t like this shit.
What change, big or small, would you like your blog to make in the world?
It’s too late for me.
But I would really love to see the National Defence Act re-written so as to make it very clear that the military has absolutely no jurisdiction to investigate any type of service offence that has been committed against a civilian, especially if the crime has been committed against a military dependent.
It’s a stretch, but I would also love to see the criminal code of Canada and the National Defence Act ammended to nullify the pre-1998 time bar, and to nullify any decision by a commanding officer to dismiss charges that had been brought against their subordinate.
In the 14 years that I’ve been dealing with the Canadian Forces, one thing that I have become acutely aware of is that the National Defence Act isn’t written in stone. It’s written in jelly. Jelly with diced fruits that can be moulded and mushed to mean whatever the military wants.
When I sent my email to the Edmonton Police Service in March of 2011, I didn’t contact the EPS because I couldn’t figure out how to send an email to the military police.
I did this because when I tried reporting the babysitter back in 1984 and 1990 the military police on CFB Namao told me on both occasions that the babysitter was a military dependent, and therefore he was a civilian and he had to be dealt with by the civilian police.
This is why I was greatly surprised in 2011 when I was contacted by the Canadian Forces National Investigation Service and told that the CFNIS would be running the investigation because the events happened on a military base.
It would later me confirmed that when the EPS contacted the CFNIS via ASIRT that the CFNIS had claimed that at the time of the offences back in 1980 my complaint would have been the jurisdiction of the Morinville RCMP but that the CFNIS would claim jurisdiction. The CFNIS also decided to check with the RCMP and other agencies to see if I had tried making complaints with anyone else.
My original complaint in 2011 was solely against the babysitter. In hindsight I know that the CFNIS knew about Captain McRae because of specific questions that I was asked by Mcpl Hancock during my original interview.
The involvement of Captain McRae was first brought to my attention by Mcpl Christian Cyr on May 3rd, 2011. Before this date I had never made a connection between the occasions when the babysitter took me to the chapel and the “sickly sweet grape juice” that I’d always be given.
As soon as the connection between my babysitter and captain McRae was made clear I started reaching out for lawyers with military experience. The few ex-JAGs that I was able to contact were all well out of my price range, but they were all adamant that if my complaint was against the babysitter that I needed to get this matter removed from the military system as the military system didn’t have jurisdiction to deal with this matter.
One of the ex-JAGs pointed me in the direction of the proper civilian police. The outside civilian police force having jurisdiction for civilian matters on CFB Namao / Edmonton Garrison was the RCMP in Morinville, not the Edmonton Police Service like I had originally believed.
I made contact with the RCMP Morinville detachment in June of 2011. I dealt with a constable from the detachment who took my information and said that he’d look into things for me. Nothing became of this until I filed a Freedom of Information Request with the RCMP.
The information that I received back was appalling. The RCMP constable had been told by the CFNIS that my complaint was likely to go nowhere due to a complete lack of evidence. The constable in turn sent out a detachment wide (and possible force wide) email alerting other members and RCMP brass of the futility of my complaint and that “I was just trying to further my agenda against the Canadian Forces”.
At this point in time the CFNIS hadn’t tried to locate any of the other victims, hadn’t spoken to my brother, and had made no attempts to talk to the babysitter or his father. None of this would occur until after the CFNIS had told the RCMP in June that the was a complete lack of evidence.
The National Defence Act over the years has been very clear as to the jurisdiction of the military police in regard to military dependents. Military dependents are only subject to arrest by the military police and prosecution by the military justice system when the dependents are outside of Canada and accompanying their serving parent while that parent is on active duty with the Canadian Forces.
When pressed on this the CFNIS and the Provost Marshal both claim that the CFNIS could investigate this matter, and then they’d simply hand the case over to the civilian police to effect the arrests. That’s not how this works.
Nor does the fact that the members of the military police and the CFNIS have the powers of peace officers when conducting their duties. The CN Police, the mayor of any city, and civilian aircraft pilots all have the powers of peace officers while discharging their duties. But their duties are very specific and have very defined boundaries. Military police and the CFNIS are charged with enforcing the Code of Service Discipline. They are not and never have been a secondary civilian police force. And military dependents are NOT subject to the Code of Service Discipline in Canada. They never have been and they never will be. There is a very obvious reason as to why we are not subjected to the Code of Service Discipline in Canada.
These jurisdictional boundaries were also made clear in a 1998 Directive from the Canadian Forces Provost Marshal titled CFMP 2120-4-0. Offences committed by civilians not subject to the Code of Service Discipline are to be handed off to the outside civilian authorities having jurisdiction.
This was reiterated by Lieutenant General Christine Whitecross. She had been asked during a hearing of the Standing Committee on National Defence by Vice co-chair Randall Garrison in matters like mine, who has jurisdiction to investigate. Her response was that matters like mine are always handed off to the civilian authorities having jurisdiction.
The interesting this about this is that in the days prior to this hearing, Rachel Ward, an “investigative reporter” with the CBC news program “Go Public” whom had taken over my story from Jenn Blair had asked me to keep her posted and to let her know about what was said as this would have serious impact on the direction of my story.
Almost immediately after Lt.-Gen. Christine Whitecross said what she had said during the committee hearing, Randall’s assistant called me to let me know. Randall himself called me shortly after. Randall told me where I could find the video of the hearing on the parliamentary website. I called Rachel’s number. No answer. Just a message stating that the subscriber had not set up their voice mail. A call to CBC Calgary yielded “We have no record of a Rachel Ward working here”. I managed to get through to mgmt. within the “Go Public” program.
Talk about some very serious misandry. I get the feeling that the mgmt within “Go Public” subscribes to the notion that males cannot be sexually assaulted, that males can only be abusers, that males can never be abused.
Yes, this is actually true. Male children cannot be victims of sexual assault. Only girls can be. Boys can only be the perpetrators.
Apparently between the time Rachel Ward deep sixed the interview between myself and Jenn Blair and today, Rachel has been involved with covering sexual assaults in the military and how the military justice system is defective and has failed women.
But, in all of her stories, has she ever looked at children that live or lived on the bases in Canada? Nope.
It’s like we never have existed. Especially not boys.
Also, I can see news reporters sitting around in the news room going “Hey, did you see this nutcase? He said that children were in the military and lived in military housing! What a clown! Children! In the military! And living on bases to boot! What a fucking lunatic!”
God damn it, how many times do I have to spell it out for you idiots? CHILDREN were never in the military and therefore couldn’t be on military bases!! This Bobbie guy is obviously a fucking lunatic!
So yeah, I don’t really have much in the way of respect for the media.
Well, it’s official, I’ve lost the media support that I’ve had for this matter.
Unfortunately David Pugliese appears to be the victim of a concerted smear campaign. And he’s gonna be swamped for the unforeseeable future.
I’m going to let Chat take the driver’s seat for a bit here:
🚨 Nature of Threats and Harassment
1. Death Threats
Following accusations in late October 2024 by former Conservative cabinet minister Chris Alexander that he had ties to the KGB, David Pugliese reported receiving death threats directed both at him and his family Yahoo News Canada+12CityNews Halifax+12theprogressreport.ca+12.
2. Deportation Scaremongering
Individuals have told his family members that they should leave the country or be deported — even though Pugliese and his relatives are Canadian citizens classic107.com.
3. Anonymized Attacks on Reputation
He has also endured anonymous attacks on his character, slurs implying disloyalty, and repeated questioning of his integrity in social and political commentary LinkedIn+8The Maple+8readtheorchard.org+8.
Needless to say that David id going to be pre-occupied for the next little while.
For the last couple of years David’s been promising to sit down with me, but things always keep coming up and nothing seems to ever gel. But David has written articles about me in the past, specifically my struggles with DND and the CAF to get my hands on captain McRae’s court martial transcripts as well as the Canadian Forces Special Investigations Unit paperwork related to the investigation of captain McRae for committing “acts of homosexuality with young boys on the base”.
I told David that unfortunately my anxiety levels and my depression levels get hammered when dates come and go, so I suggested that we hold off on any type of interviews or communications until March of 2027 as that will hopefully be the beginning of the closing chapter of my life.
It would be nice to sit down at that point in time and see what my perspective is at that point in time.
I had contact with various other news agencies, media outlets, and reporters and none could have shown any concern in the slightest.
You would think that a child sexual abuse scandal on a Canadian Forces Base that involved over 25 children who were sexually abused by an officer of the Canadian Armed Forces and his teenage accomplice would have garnered some interest in the media.
Nope.
Not a single bit of interest at all.
Sure, you’ll get the some media outlets claiming that “we ran the press release from the lawyers, what more do you want?”.
Well, it’d be nice to talk about the number of bases we had in Canada back then. That Angus Alexander McRae wasn’t the only kiddie diddling catholic priest that had been given an officer’s commission by the Canadian Forces and allowed free access to children living on restricted defence establishments.
It would be nice to talk about the lack of care or protection that children had on the bases. Or how dysfunctional households were ignored or simply transferred to other bases to get rid of the problems. Or how the CAF and the DND have always viewed military dependents living on the bases as “being their at their own risk”.
It would be nice to talk about how the incompetent military police and CFSIU that couldn’t protect women in the military from sexual assault was just as worthless at protecting the children whom lived on the bases in Canada.
It would be nice to talk about how flaws in the pre-1998 National Defence Act have allowed the Canadian Armed Forces to pretend that child sexual abuse never occurred on the bases prior to 1998 and that children were never sexually abused by members of the Canadian Armed Forces on defence establishments.
The CBC didn’t care.
The Passionate Eye didn’t care.
The National didn’t care
Global News didn’t care.
16X9 didn’t care.
CTV didn’t care.
W5 didn’t care.
L’Actualite didn’t care.
Macleans didn’t care.
Rogers Media didn’t care.
The Canadian Press didn’t care.
The Edmonton Journal didn’t care.
Even Scott Taylor’s Esprit de Corps didn’t care.
I’ve had some people express something of interest in the past.
There’s Jennifer Tryon.
There’s Jenn Blair. She sorta ran with my story. But when Jenn was replaced by Rachel Ward all of the interview materials were scrapped by Rachel. Rachel trivialized the whole issue and wrote it off as a non-issue better handled as an “interactive time line”. Rachel even got extremely pissed off at me when I informed her that then Vice co-chair of the Defence Committee Randal Garrison had obtained testimony from Lt. Gen. Christine Whitecross during a committee hearing that the CFNIS always hand off child sexual abuse investigations to the civilian authorities. This of course is not what happened in my matter. The CFNIS grabbed my investigation away from the civilian authorities and then ran the investigation into the ground.
Claude Adams was adamant that what I had been telling him couldn’t be true because if the brass tried to bury the sexual abuse of his kids, why he’d just go marching right down town to the city police and have the civilian police deal with it. Yeah Claude, that’s not going to happen in this lifetime.
So, you’re probably not going to hear a lot from me in the media over the next little while.
As I mentioned I did tell David that we should probably plan on talking in March of 2027.
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