Well, it’s 722 days between now and March 17th, 2027.
March 17th, 2027 is of course when MAiD MD-SUMC is supposed to become legal in Canada.
MAiD MD-SUMC was supposed to have been legalized on March 17th, 2023, and then again on March 17th, 2024, so I’m not exactly holding my breath for this date.
The one things that these dates do give me is a bit of relief.
This relief is the same relief that you feel when you’ve worked a double overtime shift, or you’re on an extremely long flight, and you’re near the end and you get the little kick of energy that perks you up a little to get you through.
These dates also give me a bit of hope.
A bit of hope that if I hold on for just a little bit long that I can end my life with a humane procedure under the care of a licensed medical practitioner as opposed to risking failure through a self administered procedure.
Yes, I fully understand that by ending my life via M.A.i.D. I will be giving the Government of Canada, the Department of Justice, and the Department of National Defence everything that they could possibly hope for.
However, I think I can now die knowing that I at least tried to take on the Canadian Armed Forces and that while I wasn’t successful, I did at least make some people in the DOJ and the DND extremely uncomfortable.
However, I am fucking burnt out and my depression is not ever going to get any better.
I hate the fact that I am able to somewhat function with major depression.
Bobbie, you’re an asshole!
Bobbie, you’re not a team player!
Bobbie, you’re a jerk!
Bobbie, you think you’re better than everyone else!
Having high functioning depression is a fucking curse.
Not having the events from Canadian Forces Base Namao acknowledged in even the slightest really doesn’t help.
I really hope that M.A.i.D. MD-SUMC is approved this time around.
The hospital that I am currently at is slated to transfer the acute care operations to the new site in early 2027.
Even if M.A.i.D. MD-SUMC is approved in March of 2027, there will be an evaluation process that I will have to navigate as well as a cooling-off period that I will have to sit through.
The current site will still be in operation until about 2030 as it will have to support the research programs until the new research facility has been built adjacent to the new hospital.
I have no interest in going to the new site.
I consulted on the new site, and I was a member of the committee overseeing the design of the new site.
I wish I could say that this was a highlight of my life, but it wasn’t.
It was just more proof that my depression and my baggage from the past prove to be easy targets for those who sense these vulnerabilities.
My management team is well aware of my plans to not go to the new site.
So, I get to be the captain of a sinking ship.
And believe me, there are reasons why myself and this current site fit together like hand in glove. If M.A.i.D. MD-SUMC does some to pass in March of 2027 and if I am approved to undergo the procedure I will probably explain why the current site and I both share a lot of things in common and why I think we were made for each other.
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