Well, it’s 62 days until I go visit my physician and ask him to assist me with making my formal application for Medical Assistance in Dying.
I think my doc is getting cold feet. I hope that he doesn’t chicken out. That would really fuck things up for me.
No, I don’t want more meds.
No, I don’t want fucking group hug basket weaving therapy.
No, I don’t want to explore my chakras or sing medieval healing chants.
Forever sleep and forever peace is what I want.
And I think after all that I’ve been through in life that I deserve to go to sleep to escape this constant never ending cycle of depression, anxiety, and never ending memories.
Beeshive 
I’ve been thinking about this and you know I have no place to judge your decisions. If and when we change governments, I’m sure you know that they will rescind the MAID law. I can’t stand the thoughts of anyone suffering unendingly without any hope. The doctors in this country are dismal failures more than not. They are not prepared to correct that, either. I selfishly hope that I will also have the chance to select the MAID option if it comes to that .So, that also decides my opinion. There are a lot of naysayers who will use the excuse that the governments only intent is to kill Canadians! Yet, they are trying to increase the population with immigration! People have suffered horrendous deaths before MAID was enacted. For them, I am grateful. Al the best to you, nephew! I only want you to be at peace! ❤
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Hi Nancy,
Yes, the potential for change via a change in government is also weighing on my mind.
I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that the bible thumping jesus freaks would rescind MAiD not because they view all life as sacred. They would rescind MAiD for reasons of mental health solely to inflict pain and prolonged suffering. These xtain bible thumping jesus freaks are all about suffering. And if they can use their imaginary friend to make other people suffer, so be it.
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missed hearing from you. A dear friend had MAID at thanksgiving. Really great way to gain some control with dignity.
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Control and dignity are what M.A.i.D. is all about. A fully competent adult who has passed the screening process should not be denied the right to die.
There is so very little in life that we actually have control over.
We don’t choose to be conceived.
We don’t choose to be born.
We don’t choose to be burdened with mental illness.
We don’t choose to be burdened with physical illness.
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I read your blog it really makes sense. No medications, no therapy will bring your life back. Although I had issues when I was younger now there are coming back from the grave that’s what is scared. I was assaulted by my husband on August 2022 and I did not received a simple phone call that will make a difference. What I do not get if the government wants to save money it is cheaper that buy MAID drugs than offer support. COVID 19 did a lot of damage. I hope you get your wish. I am leaving in too much isolation and the pain is unbearable same as a terminal cancer. THe only way I will open up is when I have an assessment for MAID.
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